Being here in the hospital for 2 weeks now has made me feel lonely yet wanted. It's a strange thing, I suppose. I mean I'm here for the health of my daughter and my own. So I shouldn't really be complaining and yet I do. Why you ask? Because it's the loneliness and of being here all alone most of the time really gets to you. The internet and television gets boring. Especially when you can't go outside to breathe the fresh air or even have the suns ray hit your skin. I'm a California girl, I love being out doors. It's something I have to get used to, for the time being.
I mean after all, I have my family come and visit me all the time. Especially, today! I was so surprised... that my relatives that live about an hour and a half away from me, actually made it down here to visit me. It meant so much to me, I almost cried. The fact that they all drove down here to see how I am doing and to make me smile and laugh. Makes me feel so blessed, to have them in my life.
We have so many pregnant women in our family now. My aunt is totally estatic that her daughter, which is my cousin is pregnant too. She's due in May. While my aunt Vanessa and I are due like two weeks apart. Dang! I just love having a big family. :) It's kind of funny, because my Aunt Nancy had my cousin Risela then my other cousin Leigh then my mom had two boys. Now it's kind of like that, 26 years later! haha. My brother has a baby boy, my aunt Vanessa and I are having a girl. I wonder what Risela is having. Everyone is speculating it's a boy. So who knows! :D
Other than that, about thirty minutes after my family left - my parents came! I was totally thrilled to see them. :) My little sister and big brother came too. I know I just saw them like Thursday night - but it feels like it's been weeks. It felt good to lay in bed with my mom just talking about what we're going to do when Cora is here. And of course my dad fell asleep on the chair which he said is comfortable and good for sleeping. But I highly doubt it's good for sleeping! haha. So they stayed for about an hour or two, then they left.
After I took a nap which I might add felt real good. :) Then took a shower and everything. Cora moves like crazy now. More than a month ago. Not only because I'm getting bigger it's totally amazing! I feel more like a woman, being pregnant. It's such a beautiful thing. Except for the mood swings sometimes and frequent urination and headaches. But other than that it's amazing! :)
To have a human being growing inside of you and she just makes me feel so happy. Knowing that I have someone depending on me for the first 9 months until she graduates college. I never would've thought experiencing pregnancy could be such a beautiful thing. I so cannot wait until she is old enough to bake with me.
James and I talked about everything that we'll be doing with her. To guide her into the right direction, to treat her the way we wanted to be treated when we where young and never stop believing in her. Because, honesty I know when I was a child there was a lot going on with finances and such. I don't want my daughter to be surrounded by that. I want her to know that people around her love her and care so much for her. Oh pregnancy is such a beautiful and amazing thing to experience.
And I have my wonderful husband to thank. For giving me the best gift of all, our daughter. We talked about getting married and settling down when we first met. Though the way we first met and all the situations that happened between us, we fell in love, got married, and having a baby. It's not a fairy tale, we've had our shares of arguments, disagreements, and laughter. But nonetheless, I wouldn't have it any other way.
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